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Miscarriage: A Year After Pregnancy Loss

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  I had planned to write this 6 months ago on the anniversary of the loss of the baby that was not to be (you can read that story first here). But as the time came I knew deep in my soul that I was not ready. I knew there would be a day of reflection and that that day was not it. I couldn’t then tell you the exact anniversary date. I felt the passage of a solar circle but I stayed away from the calendar. I immersed myself in the present and kept busy nourishing the relationships and […]

Saying Goodbye

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In Mother Nature’s Embrace The red rocks, like special elder centuries, inspire and protect. The creek, like the heart, nurtures and flows the most precious of energy from this cradle to the rest of the outside world. Like the voice, it sings a never-ending lullaby. The earth, like the womb, holds living souls in its most fertile of hands. The breeze, like breath, infuses every atom in its domain with fullness and peace. The trees, like grateful offspring, smile and shelter all below. The creatures who greet me: the butterfly, the dragonfly, the squirrel, the bald eagle, and the blue […]

Miscarriage: Living through Pregnancy Loss

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My baby’s heart stopped beating. Such tremendous sadness. I failed. I failed at the only thing I ever thought I never could. I failed at the most basic part of motherhood: giving life. After three perfect pregnancies and babies I was whole. Now I have to live the rest of my life with a small hole in my heart. The strength of my maternal love and optimism has been my undoing. It’s not rational, but it is my raw, real, right now. It can be frustrating that the human mind seeks meaning because sometimes there is none. Sometimes there is just a gaping […]

Pregnancy Loss Announcement

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Through tear filled eyes I need those who have shared in our joy to know that after two months together our baby’s heart has stopped beating. I appreciate your love, support, and patience as I step away, while my heart and body let go and heal. “Babies lost in the womb were never touched by fear, never cold, never hungry, never alone, and importantly always knew love.” -Zoe Clark-Coates